What's the scoop?

This blog post feels like a long time coming... even though it's really only been three months. ;)

Three crazy, long, emotional months I might add! If you're on my Facebook you've probably seen the crappy days, the happy days, the progress. Of course I'm talking about the odds and ends of my relationship with Steven. Never in a million years did I think that we would have had the year we've had. It was only a year ago that I was getting ready to shop for my wedding dress and I was SO excited. The most excited a girl could have been to go dress shopping. A year ago, I thought we'd be married at this current time and be celebrating our first month of marriage after our wedding. My oh my, did that change.

I will start by saying that we're the happiest we have ever been. It feels like we get that second chance. We've gone through the phases of not talking and realized we were more miserable taking that route. We've been talking and working through so many things the last couple of months, and one of those topics was if we did get back together it was for good. So on that note, we're a "we" again - and yes I've got the ring! So you can all stop awkwardly staring at my finger now and wondering. Haha, I wish I was joking - but really! He's working out of Lodi as an EMT and is so extremely happy with his new job - I couldn't be more proud or ecstatic for him. I'm still out in San Jose, working and getting the chance to miss him. It may sound silly but getting the chance to miss him (and vice versa) has made all the difference for us. Sometimes you don't realize the things that you take for granted even when they are right in front of you. I think once the old wedding date passed, it was no longer that constant dark cloud hovering over my thoughts. I felt relief, then some guilt, and now I feel a whole lot of happiness. I'm pretty sure that even our closest friends have had no idea what the heck is going on half the time. Sorry not sorry! The best part about that is that Steven and I have been on the same page without worrying about everyone else. We haven't cared what people will say now that we're back together or about anything that's happened. I feel like the entire ordeal has helped us grow individually and as a couple and I think that's the best outcome either of us could have hoped for.

So, are we going to rush to set a new date? Probably not, although it's hard not to want to do that! We'll play it by ear. We're living in different cities and that's a little weird for right now, but we have no idea where we'll be living once February comes around and my lease is up. We aren't worrying about that too much right now anyway. We are busy enjoying the time we do get with each other and that's what matters most :)